I feel like running, but I also feel like crying. The hot and cold temperatures of my emotions are driving me crazy, yet I deal. I wonder how long I will have to continue to go through this? How much longer will I have to continue with this everyday battle? If I knew better, I’ve been dealing with this for 14 years……. How much longer do I have to push myself to hold on? I’m trying…………. I swear, I’m trying.